You're already manifesting your deepest fears by creating a constant well of hatred and judgment within yourself, objectifying and diminishing fat people so that you can feel a false, conditional and ephemeral sense of okayness.

If you're really afraid of dying of a dis-ease, maybe you should consider working on expunging that deepseated hatred and judgment of other people's bodies from your psyche. I can tell you right now that you can exercise and eat well until the end of the earth, but if you're doing so obsessively, and/or if you're operating from a place of fear and conditional acceptance or love for yourself, you're facilitating some very ugly karma and increasing the likelihood that you'll die of cancer or some other equally painful death.

I would think that a yoga teacher would think twice about ahimsa, and about the ugliness of exploiting the image of a fat person both in your essay and in your life to reinforce the hierarchies and violence (both subtle and gross) imposed onto fat people every day because of behavior and attitudes like yours. Get off your high horse. Your yoga practice is clearly a superficial joke, just like this article. Rethink your life choices, this article is pathetic and sick and you are cruel and vapid.